I have been living as Anajean for 22 years (not that living as *insert name* would change anything haha), but whenever circumstances require me to write anything about myself, my brain seemed like a deflated balloon devoid of air. So here's an entry about myself (more about my personality 😉)I once wrote in college during our Creative Writing subjects.
To be honest, I thought I was going to finish this first entry for my creative writing journal in a matter of minutes. But the complete opposite happened. I ended up procrastinating, doing unnecessary chores, buying all the time I can just to put some distance from this undertaking, blindly hoping to create an illusion that there’s no harrowing deadline to beat and constantly trusting that doing so would eventually rig some ideas and fuel me to describe myself.
As I spent some minutes staring to oblivion, I realized just how difficult it is to create a cohesive write-up when you think words could not simply encapsulate what you truly are. So I let my heart do the talking and let my hand mechanically lead me into writing. I sat in a corner with a pen in hand suck in ounces of air, and let every tangled thoughts unravel themselves.
As I spent some minutes staring to oblivion, I realized just how difficult it is to create a cohesive write-up when you think words could not simply encapsulate what you truly are. So I let my heart do the talking and let my hand mechanically lead me into writing. I sat in a corner with a pen in hand suck in ounces of air, and let every tangled thoughts unravel themselves.
I am Anajean. An ordinary homo sapiens trying to make plans out of dreams. Born from the province but was swept into the suburbs of a municipality to live the dream. As much as I’m a dreamer, I’m also admittedly a pessimist. I have a reputation for expecting the worst out of everything. I laugh hard but I cry the hardest when I’m angry. Words abandon me and hot tears usually speak the level of my fury.
When faced with a conflict, it’s either I shut up or cry. I am not frank and euphemisms are my favorite. I fell in love with words but it doesn’t mean I am claiming to be a superb writer. I just thought of them as company when I’m alone and my solace when I feel like a listening ear wouldn’t just be enough. Writing for myself is absolute freedom but writing for a conditional cause cages that freedom. Maybe that absolute freedom is why I find science fiction and fantasy books as great literature. Making true the possibility of what’s impossible. Creating my own fiction though is not my forte. I will probably just kill all the characters so they won’t be left astray and so the story won’t be complicated. Truth be told, I’m a tidsoptimist—a believer that I have more time than I actually have that’s why the possibility of cramming is never new to me and I intend to break this bad habit, hopefully.
When faced with a conflict, it’s either I shut up or cry. I am not frank and euphemisms are my favorite. I fell in love with words but it doesn’t mean I am claiming to be a superb writer. I just thought of them as company when I’m alone and my solace when I feel like a listening ear wouldn’t just be enough. Writing for myself is absolute freedom but writing for a conditional cause cages that freedom. Maybe that absolute freedom is why I find science fiction and fantasy books as great literature. Making true the possibility of what’s impossible. Creating my own fiction though is not my forte. I will probably just kill all the characters so they won’t be left astray and so the story won’t be complicated. Truth be told, I’m a tidsoptimist—a believer that I have more time than I actually have that’s why the possibility of cramming is never new to me and I intend to break this bad habit, hopefully.
Modesty aside, I am a hard worker. I would never hesitate to break liters of sweat if it means getting that goal and sharing it with my family. However, I am not a risk-taker and I find comfort zones too cozy that I fail to leave them. Most importantly, I see myself not only as a daughter of my parents, but also as a faithful child of God as well.
More than the jet black hair, light brown complexion, spherical eyes, and average height but relatively light weight all wrapped in a name Anajean Jandayan, those are by far how I would describe myself. Plain, simple, and nothing beyond the ordinary
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